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Hmph well this weekend was boring, I filled out alot of job applications and the only fun thing I did was hang out with Lindsey on Friday. We saw a movie.

Spring break is pretty soon :] I'm sort of excited I guess...
We were GOING to go to New York but my dad's not really that sure about his job right now so we decided not too

My friend Brenna invited me to go to Panama city with her the entire Spring Break a couple of weeks ago, but I told her no. It was partly because of my grades and what not... but the real reason was I wanted to spend time with AJ... at that time we hadn't hung out in a really long time and he was grounded from his phone. Actually I think he broke up with me the day after I told her no. Small world, huh? She ended up taking her boyfriend and I kind of didn't want to tag along and be a 3rd wheel.

Idk lately I've been tired of trying to smile and act like everythings ok. Cuz its not. What he did hurt me alot, and I didn't deserve it. I really really just want to talk to him.. thats all. I'm not going to yell at him or try to get him back, I just need some kind of closure so I can move on with my life. I deserved more than a text message, after 5 months. After everything he told me.. he didn't mean a word of it. I don't know anymore... he hasn't made any effort to contact me in more than a week so its probably not even going to happen. I'll just have to deal. Oh well...

Well I got to go
<33 always
Marissa